Yeah. I was wrong...again.
I really thought I could make this happen - for once in my life, maybe get something that was strong. That could keep me on my feet for at least a couple months. Instead - I have to go ruin it - like everything else.
Why can't I just be like everyone else. To live a normal life, with normal problems, with normal fears, with normal joys.
I cannot keep doing this much longer. I'm fearing that I'll break everyone that comes in my path. I'm afraid I will disappoint everyone I know.
I'd give everything to get out of here, and to never look back. To just drive - to the middle of nowhere, live there with just me, and my dog. Living of the nature. To only take care of myself.
I'd give it all up, just to have that one moment of silence with myself again. To have that inner calm I used to have.
I drank vodka today. It felt good. To relax a bit. Feel warm.
I thought about an old flame today. I miss her. I thought about another one, that I don't miss...at all.
I miss the way I used to be. The way I always managed to overlook everything. The way I managed to keep my calm. Maybe I was ignorant, maybe I were just stupid - maybe both? I cannot answer that, all I know is this: that time has passed. It will never return.
I know I'm a fool from time to time - running in and out of relationships like i do. But I can't help myself. I care too much. I care too much to let them sit there by themselves. I cannot let people be when they feel sad. I don't know... Maybe I'm just a bit odd, or maybe I'm just a plain ol' fool.
I was wrong again - after all the effort I tried to put into it. After all the time I spent trying to figure out a way to save it. My effort was for nothing. I can't help but to feel like I betrayed her, but still - I didn't. I never lied to her, I really did love her, I really did think I'd figure out a way to fix it. To make it all good again.
Maybe I was a fool to think I - I (!) could make this right.
I will never make anything right.
I'll go away now. Listening to this song:
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Quotes:
~ Live as if you should die tomorrow, dream as if you should live forever.
~ Everything happens for a reason.
~ Live for nothing, or die for something
~ Pain is temporary - glory is eternal.
~ Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak, sometimes it means you're strong enough to let go.
~ It's better to take a chance and regret it, rather than regret the chance you never took.
~ The biggest thing, is never the fall, but the achievement of arising afterward. Only uphill go upwards.
~ Its not about finding someone you can live with, it's about finding someone you can't live without.
~ If I had to choose between loving you, and breathing, I'd use my last breath to say "I love you".
~ If you had another night to give, I would have another night to live.
~ It's better to lose your pride with someone you love, rather than lose the one you love to your useless pride.
~ ...maybe she's a little scared to get close to anyone, because everyone who said "I'll always be there"....left,,
~ Together with others, one learns to live - alone one learns to die.
~ Trying to forget someone you loved, is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
~ Everything happens for a reason.
~ Live for nothing, or die for something
~ Pain is temporary - glory is eternal.
~ Giving up doesn't always mean you're weak, sometimes it means you're strong enough to let go.
~ It's better to take a chance and regret it, rather than regret the chance you never took.
~ The biggest thing, is never the fall, but the achievement of arising afterward. Only uphill go upwards.
~ Its not about finding someone you can live with, it's about finding someone you can't live without.
~ If I had to choose between loving you, and breathing, I'd use my last breath to say "I love you".
~ If you had another night to give, I would have another night to live.
~ It's better to lose your pride with someone you love, rather than lose the one you love to your useless pride.
~ ...maybe she's a little scared to get close to anyone, because everyone who said "I'll always be there"....left,,
~ Together with others, one learns to live - alone one learns to die.
~ Trying to forget someone you loved, is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
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- Simen
- What you see, is what you get. Live with it, or do live everyone else - aand leave.
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